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Most difficult part of writing

I wanted to start a blog as a way to sort of show case my stories. It was a good idea, still is, but I never realized that it would also start me thinking about the actual writing.

I am a procrastinator, I can always find a hundred reasons to do something else even though I love writing. I need to write more than I need to breath or eat. Well, maybe not more but I love writing more than I love eating so that makes it much more important, at least to me. It doesn’t explain why I have such a difficult time sitting down to actually write every day.

It’s not the ideas that are the problem, I have way too many ideas and characters running around inside my head. My biggest problem is that I don’t trust myself, or maybe I just don’t have enough confidence in myself. I write and write and then I read it and all I can think is . . .  it’s not good enough. It’s not as good….. and then every book I have ever read comes back to haunt me.

I have always read. I read everything and anything. Some great, some okay and some not so good, but I still read them. Then I compare myself to them, which is really silly because  everyone has their own stories to tell and no one can tell the ones that live in my brain. That doesn’t stop me from comparing my writing to them. It doesn’t stop me from wondering why my stories aren’t as good as most of the ones I’ve read.

Why? Why do I do this to myself, why do I listen to my lack of self confidence? Why do I sell myself short? I know I can write, at least a part of my brain knows I can write. I’ve been writing most of my life and that ‘s a lot of years. I’ve had poetry published in anthologies. I’ve won poetry contests, well maybe not won, but I’ve gotten honorable mentions, fourth prize and such, so I know I can write poetry. No big deal. I’ve always used the poetry to get through the tough times in my life. Things I can’t talk about I can write about and get through them.

Family and friends that have read my children’s stories say they are good. Most of them like what I write. I write Christmas stories for my family almost every year, writing comes easily when I don’t think about it. So why do I think about it? I really don’t know.

I fill notebooks with writing. I work for weeks, months, sometimes years on a story and then just as I’m about to finish it I start something else. I never go back and finish the stories.

So that brings me full circle back to why I started this blog for my children’s stories. Maybe…. just maybe now that I have an incentive to put them out here and maybe, just maybe someone will actually read them I can find the words and inspiration to actually finish all the stories sitting on my shelf.

Several of them are only a chapter or two away from being finished. Maybe now I can actually finish them, unless I talk myself out of doing it again. I need to finish them, it’s the only way I’ll ever get all those characters out of my head and onto the paper where they belong.

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Procrastination

I have to be the best procrastinator. I can always find a dozen new things to start so that I never get back to projects I should be finishing. I’ve been trying to get things made to list in my online store before Christmas is over. Again lots of ideas, probably too many ideas to get done on time and I have a hard time not starting new ideas. Which is probably why I have dozens of stories started and only a few actually finished.

I haven’t been adding to this blog like I had planned. Everytime I sit down to add a post or a new story page I find myself distracted by something else. Most days it doesn’t take much to distract me, but I will be adding a longer story in a few days, I promise. I am still doing some editing to it but the story is actually done. It is a 10 chapter Christmas story for kids.

Starting in December I plan on posting the letters I’ve been writing for the last six years for my great nephew. At least they started for him and within a few months I was sending them to a dozen kids. Co-workers kids, boss’s grand kids,etc. Now most of those kids are 10 years old and too old for the letters. I have a few new kids that I still send them to, but I decided to post them here.

My little great nephew when he was in kindergarten had a great teacher who made a big deal over leprechauns on St. Patrick’s day. While the kids were out playing the leprechauns threw papers and things all around the room. He really got into leprechauns. My niece (his mother) asked if I could write him a letter from a leprechaun. It was so much fun that I got out a calendar and ended up writing a letter a month from a different “holiday keeper”.

Now six years later I have six years of letters from the keepers at End of the Rainbow. I started with a leprechaun but then went back and sent him letters for January (Father Time) and February (Cupid) so he would have a full year of letters.

I will be posting each letter the month ahead of the holiday they are for. I hope you and your children will enjoy the letters as much as my family and friends have.

Now I have to get started on my Christmas booklets, as I mentioned in an earlier post. This year I think I will try a round robin story again. Did it several years ago and it was fun. I start a story, usually just a few paragraphs and then send it round to every member of the family to add to it. It’s always fun to see where it ends ups.

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